Today has reminded me of the great and the not so great aspects of our job as actors. The great: I was a guest on Leno today!! What the hell? Now if you told me ten years ago that I would be following Jeff Bridges as a guest on Jay’s show I would probably call you crazy. I am so happy to be here, doing what I love to do, and the fact that I keep getting the stamp to continue onward.
On the other side of the spectrum, I have been getting a lot of questions about things that I don’t feel the need to explain or talk about. I don’t mean it as an insult, I’ve just never shared private details of my personal life to promote my career or a project that I am working on. To me, it feels like cheating. What is the payoff worth when you haven’t taken the fair steps to get there? They say a picture is worth a thousand words, but aren’t those words subject to the eye of the beholder? And who is the viewer to say that their perspective is the right one? Opinions, opinions, opinions….and all of those ‘inside sources’. If you believe to have the facts, show your face and then say what you indeed know to be true! :)
It’s all neither here nor there, I am only on the beginning chapters of my career. It’s possible that these moments may be ever-present, but honestly, I feel it can be a waste of time. More than that, I never want it to get in the way of doing my work. To me, that is the REAL fear. I’m really excited that our film is coming out soon, but mostly because we worked hard, and had a lot of fun doing it. If that is something that others want to see, and possibly enjoy, it’s a win-win situation.
I am putting my faith in all of those people who know better. Perhaps some of you would rather hear about projects I am working on and so proud to be a part of, not whether or not I’m swapping spit with some guy? Or if I’m painting my house, or washing the car, or having septuplits with a guy I met in Naples named Luciano. If you want a good story, let’s at least make it really rich! Totally understand if there is interest, but I find I am more interesting on screen. Once there, I’m able to live many lives, and travel the world in each new character.
Do you think that we as people are only defined clearly if paired with someone else? Or if every single detail of our lives are laid out on the table? And even if they were, would you really know what those shoes were like without walking in them? Here I am RAMBLING. OK! I have learned you can’t really let it get to you - ever - or you will go insane. But just to be clear, to get it out there in the open: there is only one thing I will ever do to promote a project, and that is to talk about the project. And then perhaps a few items such as my lack of knowledge in regards to football or about my recent pat-down at LAX.
I guess it has been a slow media week….
I don’t know why I am so awake at the moment.
My ramble is done.