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The Bachelorette

Bachelorette Emily Maynard: If Sean Lowe and I Had More Time, Would Things Have Been Different?

Bachelorette Emily Maynard was so confident in her relationships with her final three boyfriends, she knew a couple of hours off camera in the "fantasy suites" wasn’t going to change anything. So no test drives necessary.

In her People blog on The Bachelorette Season 8, Episode 9, Em admits she was nervous about the fantasy suites even before signing up for the show, because she knows everything that term implies. (Hence the very obvious camera shots of guys leaving without spending the night.)

Here's more from Em's latest blog, including her non-reasons for not keeping genetic gift Sean Lowe:

Sorry, Uncle Seanie: "The fact that he was with someone for three years, but still dodged the marriage conversation, made me worry. I always felt like there was a wall between us. However, at dinner Sean's letter to Ricki blew my mind. I had no idea he was feeling all of those things and in that moment I really did want those things with Sean, too. I left my date feeling like all my questions had been answered and that he very well could've been my husband one day."

Jef Holm's tough questions: "Being on the paddleboard with Jef was the most peaceful I'd felt in a long time and I could've sat there forever, but I'm pretty sure he would've gotten tired! I went into dinner with some questions but he had some questions, too. I loved that Jef had thought about those things because it showed me that his heart was in the right place. He really wanted to meet Ricki, but I wasn't 100 percent sure about involving her yet, even though in order to really know me you have to know her."

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Too busy kissing Arie Luyendyk, Jr. to notice cameras: "The fact that I got to go on a date with Arie and swim with dolphins made me so happy! But I'm scared of almost everything – and a terrible swimmer. He was so sweet and compared it to a big cat, which just proved how much he gets me. Looking back at the time I've spent with Arie, I can't remember any cameras. It always felt like it was just the two of us because we were so wrapped up in each other. As confident as I was about my feelings, I still didn't know what my life would be like in Scottsdale, Ariz., so I had a lot of questions for him. We communicate so well – it makes me feel like we've known each other for much longer. His thoughts on growing a relationship with Ricki made me confident that Arie gets kids. I know Ricki would love him."

Sobbing forever over Sean: "I sat in the chair after my talk with Chris and cried for what seemed like an eternity. Everything about Sean made me want to be with him in the end. I wish I could pinpoint even one thing that would justify sending him home, but I still can't. The hardest part was knowing he felt so confident and didn't see it coming. He had no reason to, though, because I felt just as confident after our date. I still wonder if Sean and I had had more time, if things would've been different."

Do you think Em and Sean would've developed a stronger connection over time, or would it not matter since her connections to Jef and Arie would also grow over time? Or do you think she would eventually tire of either Arie or Jef? Or would they tire of her?

Source: People