In one of the biggest surprises of the season on America's Next Top Model Cycle 18, AzMarie Livingston was eliminated on Cycle 18, Episode 6: "Jessica Sutta and Nadine Coyle." Many of the modelstants, and even Tyra Banks, considered AzMarie a front-runner, thanks to her success in all of the photo challenges, and her unique, androgynous look.
In an exclusive interview with Wetpaint Entertainment, AzMarie filled us in on why she didn’t put on the Booty Tooch butt pads, why she was hurt by the judges’ comments after watching the show, and what it’s like being so beautiful.
Wetpaint Entertainment: What was your reaction when you realized you were eliminated?
AzMarie: No, I wasn’t much surprised because I knew, I felt the energy and my intuition just told me, the minute I was like, “No,” I wasn’t going to participate in Booty Tooching, that I was gonna be sent home. I just knew right then and there. Because I was like, I think that probably anybody that says they’re not going to do something, they’re going to be sent home.
Do you regret your decision not to participate?
No I didn’t regret it, but I apologized [to Tyra Banks] because, over the course of the days when we were doing everything, to when we got to elimination, the conversations that came up that it was a slap in her face, that I was disrespecting her. And when I did it, I wasn’t in my mind trying to disrespect her or trying to make her look any way or anything like that. And that is the only reason why I apologized. I did it so that, when I did leave, at least I had that one opportunity if I never had it again, to say that it wasn’t like that or that I didn’t have the intention of doing that. In that moment, I didn’t feel comfortable doing that particular thing, I was not comfortable doing it. I personally felt that maybe later it could possibly jeopardize my image, my character. I still stand by [that decision] today, where I was like no, I got dressed! I planned on trying to do it. But she said you have to leave because you didn’t wear [the Booty Tooch pads].
What did you mean when you said the pads weren’t part of androgyny?
I personally just felt like, knowing that it’s a modeling show, even knowing that Tyra does some silly things on her show, it was something that I did not feel comfortable doing. And I felt like, well, I can be androgynous and be masculine, but why do I need a pad? What’s that going to do? If I’m modeling and I’m in the real world, I’m gonna use my non-butt to make it work. It’s one of those things that everyone’s going to have their opinion on. I’ve kind of just been biting my nails for the past five, six weeks, because I knew it was going to happen. I don’t know how everyone else is gonna take it. I’m glad that they did show [my apology], because I did, I genuinely apologized because I’m not trying to slap [Tyra] in the face or disrespect [her]. She gave me this opportunity to be on this show. I think my mind at that time, if the cameras weren’t there, and I didn’t feel comfortable doing something, I would still say no, I’m not going to do this job. Or my manager or agent would say, if you’re uncomfortable or in a position where you no longer want to be there, you don’t have to do the job.
What was the best piece of advice Tyra gave you?
I think she gave us the opportunity to do this show, and show more facets of ourselves. If I were to come out as an artist, I wouldn’t come out as an artist kind of like that pop, “Stop, Drop and Tooch” [style], you know that wouldn’t be me.
Who were you closest to in the house?
I was close to a few people, I was really close to Catherine, and I was close to Louise, and Ashley. And I was also cool with Jasmia, I was cool with everybody in the house. I’m really a down-to-earth person, I got along with everybody in the house. On the show, I noticed, you don’t see me talking much crap about everybody because I never had anything bad to say. I’m not that kind of person. If you have to say anything at all, you gotta think positive. I had things that were positive to say, it just wasn’t shown.
Were you surprised that everyone had a crush on you?
No, my life has been like that for like four or five years now. I’ve been modeling for about four and a half years, and going into this show, of everything that they were saying, I think I’ve experienced, I’ve heard, or I’ve read on blogs before coming into this show. In my mind, I was like, if I can get on here, to at least get on it, I have the opportunity to show everybody this [androgynous side to modeling]. That was my excitement. Either you love it or hate it, it’s still there, and it is in the world and I’m not the only person that cares like this, to be actually able to model, and to be able to work, and to really have something outside [the norm], this androgyny.
Did you have crushes on anyone in the house?
Honestly, I kind of had a crush on everybody, I thought everybody was hot. But going into it, I was like no surprises, I’m not trying to get on here for that. But I don’t like to make anyone feel uncomfortable or anything like that. In the house, it was really just low-key. I was reminded every day of how hot I was. And yeah, there were girls in the house that I thought were, you know, attractive and cool. Especially after we got makeovers, we were all looking at each other like, damn!
Do you have a girlfriend?
No, I don’t. I was single before the show, I’m single now.
What did you think after you saw the judges talking about your “attitude”?
I don’t agree with their assessment. I think that my confidence was just perceived as cockiness. And I think that it kind of made it look like an attitude. Which was pretty interesting to me, to actually see that. That’s so offensive, that over the last few weeks, that [elimination episode] was kind of really the only time I heard it, I mean you hear Tyra throw it in in the end, “Oh she’s getting cocky.” I mean, damn, y’all been throwing me under the bus over the first couple of weeks, and when I do something right, and I’m like, okay I’m doing it right, and my confidence is there, like I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing. It wasn’t like, I’m doing it, I know I got it. It was like, I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, so I’m excited that I’m there, but then the minute I said that, they’re like, “Oh she thinks she’s too good.”
Who are you rooting for?
I would say it’s between two people. Laura and Sophie at this point … because they would make the best models. Their body of work definitely shows that either of them are worthy of beingAmerica’s Next Top Model this season.
Catch the next episode of ANTM Cycle 18 on Wednesday, April 18 at 9 p.m. ET/PT on The CW.
Molly Friedman is an editor at Wetpaint Entertainment. Follow her on Twitter @MollyFriedman.
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