Zosia Mamet makes a startling admission at the start of her column in the September 2014 issue of Glamour: “I've struggled with an eating disorder since I was a child."
The Girls star talks about what she calls an "addiction" — and wonders why our society doesn't treat it as seriously as other addictions.
"I was told I was fat for the first time when I was eight," she explains. "I'm not fat; I've never been fat. But ever since then, there has been a monster in my brain that tells me I am — that convinces me my clothes don't fit or that I've eaten too much. At times it has forced me to starve myself, to run extra miles, to abuse my body.
She even recalls standing in front of her fridge for hours, contemplating whether to eat: "I was only 17, living in misery, waiting to die."
Zosia reveals that her father, director David Mamet, was the one who encouraged her to seek help, telling her, "You're not allowed to die."
"It was the first time I realized this wasn't all about me," she writes. "I didn't care if I died, but my family did. That's the thing about these kinds of disorders: They're consuming; they make you egocentric; they're all you can see."
Luckily, the 26-year-old says that she's at a good weight now, even though she still does hear that "monster" from time to time. At least now she's empowered to ignore her unhealthy urges — and encouraging healthy conversation nationwide.
Watch the video above to see Zosia at the 2012 Emmys looking gorgeous!