Emily Maynard Wasn’t Sure She’d Get Married After 2 Failed ‘Bachelor’ Engagements
Emily Maynard is now happily married and a mother to four kids, but there was a time when she didn’t think she’d find love again.
The former Bachelorette tragically lost her boyfriend in a plane crash when she was just 18 and expecting her first child, Ricki.
Then, following two failed engagements on both The Bachelor and The Bachelorette, the mother of four wasn’t sure marriage was in her cards.
“I think back to where I was five years ago, going through another public breakup, and I gave in to the idea that maybe marriage and that life was not for me,” the mother of four told People.
She was first engaged to Brad Womack after Season 15 of The Bachelor and then Jef Holm on Season 8 of The Bachelorette.
“I really had to come to terms with the fact that maybe it was going to be just Ricki and me forever,” the 31-year-old revealed.
“Then I met Tyler, and I knew that was not the plan. Now I couldn’t imagine my life any other way.”
The blonde beauty married her husband Tyler Johnson in 2014 and they have three sons together — 6-week-old Gatlin, 15-month-old Gibson, and 2-year-old Jennings.
Though Ricki’s father passed away over 10 years ago, Emily still lives with that sadness every day.
“As a mom you live in fear that the bottom is going to fall out,” she shared.
“From what I’ve experienced, I’ve lived with that dark cloud over me, like, ‘When is something bad going to happen?’ I have to have faith that we’ll be okay.”
Needless to say, the former reality star is more than thankful to have her husband around, especially when it comes to dealing with their kiddos.
“He’s such a great dad. Sometimes I’m jealous that the boys, and Ricki, love him so much that I’m like, ‘I wanna be the favorite,’” she shared.
“Whenever he’s around, I don’t have to worry about anything. He has it handled. [I’m] extra grateful for him and all that he does because I didn’t have that before.”
She continued, “And it’s such a huge help.”
And, even though he’s not Ricki’s biological father, he still loves her like she’s his own.
“I’m super honored. I’m blessed to be her dad. I love her as if she was mine biologically … there’s really no difference,” he confessed.
“And she’s my buddy. She’s literally the best thing that ever happened to me. I love her to death.”