Chad Johnson Gets Emotional About His Mother’s Death on ‘Famously Single’ (VIDEO)
For the most part, the reality star has ditched his troublemaking ways since being kicked off Bachelor in Paradise 3 last summer — though he’s occasionally slipped back into them on Twitter.
But on his newest TV gig, Chad takes things one step further and even displays genuine emotion!
The beefcake, who turns 30 this summer, has been putting in the work to better himself of late — first opting out of Paradise Season 4 (whether that was his choice or not) and then trying to date someone seriously.
Though we hear his relationship with model Zoe Baron is a bit up-and-down right now, the Oklahoma native is definitely making strides.
And after watching last night’s Famously Single, we think part of that might have to do with the come-to-Jesus moments he had on the show!
In a sitdown with relationship expert Dr. Darcy Sterling, Chad concedes that, while Bachelorette did make him look like the “bad guy,” he was responsible for his actions on the show.
That’s when he opens up about what caused the bad behavior — he was distracting himself from the recent loss of his mother to cancer.
The one question people keep asking, is why did I go on #TheBachelorette? Well other than the fact that I work all the time, for 7 years I watched my mother slowly die from cancer. Over the last 3 she got much worse and I decided to spend all of my time that I wasn't working, at her house taking care of her and generally spending time with her. She was all alone since her divorce from my father. My sister and I were all that she had. So I have not had a relationship in a very long time because I was busy trying to make sure my mother lived out her final years in comfort and surrounded by family. I still miss her everyday... She was my best friend and the person I told everything to. #family #bachelornation #bachelorette #bachelormonday #joelle #jojo #chadjohnson
He calls his mom the “most important relationship” he’s ever had, and admits he never had the chance to mourn her passing.
“I couldn’t think about it,” he shares, tearing up. “All I could think about was ‘Did I ruin my life?’”
Not only did this death cause him to act out during filming, but he also maintains that it’s hurt his dating life off of the show.
“I don't like letting new people in that easy because I don't want to lose someone again like that,” he reasons.
Having a hard time missing my Mom today. She was the happiest most positive person I've ever known and she was taken from me and my family way too soon. For everyone out there with a loved one fighting cancer, I want to encourage you to seek alternative healing methods other than #chemo. Watching my mother go through #breastcancer and then #livercancer while being treated with #chemotherapy was the worst thing a person or a family could ever have to endure. Please people, look into a change of diet, a change of lifestyle, and natural healing methods such as cannabis oil. Give your loved ones a fighting chance. @susangkomen @breastcancer_awareness @breastcancernow @fxckcancer @cancersuckscom @cancersucks_spread_awareness
“I know that's my mother and she was sick, but I feel like a lot of people take too many chances of being too open too easily and I don't really do that.”
It’s not just death that scares him — he’s also worried that he’ll repeat the patterns of his father, who left his mother.
“I sometimes tend to back away or in some way, sabotage it because I think I’m afraid of hurting them because what happens if we got married and then we had to break up?” he unloads.
Dr. Sterling then advises, “My hope is that you’re going to meet somebody. At worst, somebody who will be a great friend for life and at best, maybe a lifelong partner.”
“But you’re never going to know if you don’t close your eyes and jump. You have to try.”
Wise words — hopefully he was listening!
Famously Single airs Sunday nights at 10 p.m. ET on E!