For the first time since her arrest in Seaside Heights last month, Jersey Shore star Deena Nicole is opening up about what caused her public breakdown.

The meatball was arrested on June 10 for disorderly conduct after drunkenly dancing in the streets, hitting passing cars, and crying about the loss of her fellow “meatball,” aka Snooki.

So what caused the reality star’s erratic (or at least, more erratic than usual) behavior? According to a new report from Page Six, Deena feels pressure to keep up her crazy antics for the cameras.

“I drink and have my ‘meatball’ days,” the reality star said. “I keep up my meatball ways, even though sometimes I don’t want to. But everybody loves me that way.”

Deena certainly isn’t the first cast member to fold from the pressures of reality television. Last season, Vinny took a hiatus to deal with his anxiety and Mike is still recovering from his addiction to prescription drugs. 

“I was conflicted, confused,” Deena added. “I wanted to party, but I was over it.”

Pressure aside, the reality star seems to have taken away at least one lesson from the drunken fiasco.  

“I realized, just because I’m on Jersey Shore doesn’t mean I can’t get in trouble,” she said. “I was like, ‘I have to get my [bleep] together.’ I couldn’t make it in jail.”

Want more Jersey Shore? Catch the next episode of Snooki & JWOWW on on Thursday, July 19 on MTV.

Source: Page Six

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