"That represented how spontaneous and how reactionary this was for Jackson," Jesse tells The Hollywood Reporter. "It's Jackson realizing he has to do something, and seeing the room go silent and the faces looking back at him when he understands the weight of what he could potentially be doing. Then taking a breath and reaffirming that this isn't a choice; it's something he has to do that's actually happening."
According to Jesse, Jackson sat down because he assumed — momentarily, at least — that this confession of love could wait.
"What he realizes when he sits down that first time is that he doesn't have time to sit there and try to rationalize it — he's been doing that to his own detriment for the past six months or two years or however long. [He has to] stand up and say the truth and figure out the rest later. It's a physical illustration of self-censorship and catching himself and trying to be tactful and have some grace and wait for the right time, but there's no more waiting, and he has to do what he has to do."
Jackson's thought process and indecisiveness made for an incredibly awkward but also beautifully human moment. And just like that, our respect for the Grey's Anatomy writers reached even higher.