Kim Kardashian is 50 pounds down from her pregnancy weight and she wants the world to know it.

In an appearance last night, October 30, on The Tonight Show With Jay Leno, the reality star admitted that all the criticism surrounding her weight while she was pregnant “really did affect” her.

“It really hurt my soul,” she told Jay. “It changed how I am in the public a little bit… There were these stories where I was, like, 200 pounds. I was gaining weight because I was pregnant and it was really hard to read all these stories and hear all these nasty things. And I think people sometimes question, they think I’m out ‘in hiding’ now.”

But Kim swears she wasn’t avoiding the media because of her weight, she just wanted some privacy.

“I just wanted to kinda adjust my life a little bit because why would I subject myself to so much negativity, especially now that I have a daughter?” she said. “I just didn’t need that energy, I’d rather be in a happy place at home… I’ve definitely tried to live more of a private life because of that, because they were so nasty. Why even go out as much just to put yourself in that position?”

Now that Kim has dropped her pregnancy weight thanks to exercise and the Atkins diet, the recently-engaged star hasn’t hesitated to show off her famous derriere. When asked about the skimpy swimsuit selfie she recently posted, Kim admits that she may have had motives other than getting her fiance Kanye West home earlier.

“I was trying on a bathing suit,” she explained. “And I actually just sent that to my boyfriend and I was like, ‘Babe, can I post this up? This is like my big middle finger to the world on everyone that called me fat.’”

Source: E! News