Patton Oswalt Opens Up on Wife Michelle McNamara’s Cause of Death
"The worst is when I told my daughter the next day," Patton Oswalt says in a new interview.
The comedian opened up about the sudden death of his wife, true-crime writer Michelle McNamara, in April of this year, the cause of her passing, and how he and their daughter are coping with the loss.
Though he's back to work again, the 47-year-old admits he's far from being OK — and doubts he ever will be.
"I'll never be 100 percent again, but that won't stop me from living this," the 2016 Emmy winner tells the New York Times.
Though the coroner still hasn't determined Michelle's cause of death, the Goldbergs narrator has some idea based on the events of her last day.
“I have a feeling it might have been an overdose,” he said, based on her taking some anti-anxiety medication to help her fall asleep. “That’s what the paramedics there were saying while I was screaming and throwing up.”
The 47-year-old is clearly still grappling with his loss, but knows he has to go on for the sake of Alice, their 9-year-old daughter.
In fact, he cites Alice as being hugely important in helping him deal with his grief, telling the Times the two of them write down three things they remember about her every night.
"It keeps this living portrait of her,” he said through tears.
There's one other way he's hoping to secure his wife's legacy — finishing her life's work.
Though he feels confident the book will get out there with the help of a researcher and another journalist he's working with, he says the big unfinished business is solving the crime she had been writing about.
"She was close to figuring it out. It would give her bad nightmares," he said. "In comic-book terms, I was married to a great crime fighter."