Monica Lewinsky Talks Bill Clinton Affair, Suicidal Thoughts, and That Beyonce Lyric (VIDEO)
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Monica Lewinsky Talks Bill Clinton Affair, Suicidal Thoughts, and That Beyonce Lyric (VIDEO)

Believe it or not, Scandal's Olivia Pope wasn't the first person to be outed for a presidential affair. In 1995, President Bill Clinton and 22-year-old White House intern Monica Lewinsky began a sexual relationship — the details of which were made public in a year-long investigation in 1998.

President Clinton escaped impeachment and finished his second term — and even stayed married to wife Hillary — but the aftermath was much more difficult for Monica. At least, that's how it sounds based on what Monica, now 40, writes in the latest issue of Vanity Fair.

In the article, Monica says she is tired of tiptoeing around her past "I am determined to have a different ending to my story,” she writes. “I've decided … that I can take back my narrative and give a purpose to my past."

And she makes one point abundantly clear: "I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton."

However, she does stipulate that the affair was a consensual relationship. "Any 'abuse' came in the aftermath," she adds, "when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position."

In the ensuing years, Monica got a master's degree in social psychology and began interviewing for communications and branding jobs. However, because of her "history," employers would always turn her down.

But now she's not afraid to revisit that history, saying her decision to speak out now was inspired by the 2010 death of Tyler Clementi, who killed himself after his roommates recorded and published video of him having sex — a tragedy that particularly affected Monica's mother: "She was reliving 1998, when she wouldn't let me out of her sight … because I, too, was suicidal. The shame, the scorn, and the fear that had been thrown at her daughter left her afraid … that I would be literally humiliated to death."

She continues: "Perhaps by sharing my story, I reasoned, I might be able to help others in their darkest moments of humiliation."

Oh, and she does have words for a certain "Partition" singer: "Thanks, Beyonce, but if we're verbing, I think you meant 'Bill Clinton'd all on my gown,' not 'Monica Lewinsky'd.'"

Source: Vanity Fair

Dan Clarendon is an assistant editor at Wetpaint Entertainment. Follow him on Twitter and Google+!

05.6.2014 / 12:00 AM EDT by Dan Clarendon
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