Demi Lovato, who has always been forthcoming about her ongoing struggles with bulimia and cutting, opens up about her difficult past in the MTV documentary Demi Lovato: Stay Strong.
The singer spent three months in rehab from late 2010 to 2011, where she worked on bringing her compulsive behaviors in check and learned that she’s bipolar.
"This is a daily battle that I will face for the rest of my life," she says. "Everyone kind of made me a role model, and I hated that. I was partying, I was self-medicating. I was always stressing out. I felt like I was living a lie. I felt guilt and shame. I decided to take it out on myself. I harmed myself. It was my way of taking my own shame and my own guilt out on myself, and I was just depressed."
But rehab wasn’t a cure-all. Demi admits, "I don't think I'm fixed. People think that you're like a car in a body shop. You go in, they fix you, and you're out. It takes constant fixing."
"I cannot tell you that I have not thrown up since treatment," she told host SuChin Pak during the special. "I cannot tell you that I have not cut myself since treatment. I'm not perfect. This is a daily battle that I will face the rest of my life."