Credit: Photo via Instagram Photo: Porsha Stewart's First Post-Divorce Pic

Divorce is a difficult thing, and even more so if you are a highly visible public figure. So imagine what Porsha Stewart is going through right now.

Given her precipitous rise to stardom on Real Housewives of Atlanta and her happy marriage to former NFL quarterback Kordell Stewart, it must have seemed for a moment like she had it all. But very quickly, after learning through Twitter that Kordell had filed for divorce, that illusion came crashing down.

“I feel heartbroken and at times I feel ashamed,” Porsha said in a recent interview.  “Because I put myself out there to the world as a wife and I was proud to be married and for it to end the way it did, it’s almost like a failure in a way.”

But still, Porsha is resolute that this is all part of a larger narrative for her.

“But I do know that God has more for me."

Porsha says that she ignored the words of her castmates who called Kordell "controlling" saying that was hard for her to deal with." But even with the added strain coming from outside the marriage, Porsha resolves to keep the blame for the downfall of the union squarely on Kordell's shoulders for filing in the first place.

“I know that, at the end of the day, he probably didn’t deserve me,” she said.  “I feel like I still have a chance to have it all but maybe just a little different this time.”

Source: ABC