Kyle Richards had to endure a discussion of Mauricio's rumored infidelity during lunch at Carlton Gebbia's on last night's Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. Now, she is explaining why the scene bothered her so much.

When Brandi brought up the rumors, "I was seriously blindsided, as we had been getting along, and this clearly was not the place to bring up the tabloids that had been attacking my family," Kyle writes in her Bravo blog. "It had been causing all of us great pain and the last thing I wanted, once again, was to talk about it in this 'arena.'"

"Brandi, Lisa, and Yolanda continued to talk about it. I sat there trying to keep a straight face with a lump in my throat," Kyle writes. "I knew I was under attack and didn't want to give them the satisfaction of hurting me."

Kyle feels that Lisa wasn't consistent in supporting her. "Lisa in one breath will say, 'Oh, it's all nonsense. You can't pay attention,' then when Yolanda went to say something (once again), Lisa quickly jumped in saying, 'Where there's smoke, there's fire," she says. "If you're my 'friend,' why would you say that to cast doubt in everyone's minds? For me, that was a pivotal moment in our relationship."

"I needed support from these women at a time that was clearly difficult," Kyle continues. "I have never been the subject of tabloid lies before this, and I was clearly not equipped. I wanted to just brush it off and 'act' like it was no big deal like everyone had been telling us to do, but I just could not. That's not who I am."

Kyle also resents that Carlton didn't react to Brandi calling her a you-know-what. "When Brandi said that Carlton was edgy and a 'ct,' I almost fell off my chair," Kyle writes. "I was thinking Carlton was going to say something back to her, but it seems Brandi can do no wrong, and EVERYTHING I do IS wrong."

We know that Kyle and Brandi are currently at a better place in their relationship, but we're curious to see how this happens, since they are clearly not close at this point in the season.

Source: Bravo