Credit: Courtesy of Bravo Photo: Brandi in the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Season 4, Episode 2

If you’re only going by what you see on TV, Brandi Glanville is a no-holds-barred, foul-mouthed drama queen. But the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star wants people to know there’s a lot more to her than her onscreen persona. Sure, she stirs up trouble in front of the cameras because it’s her job – but behind the scenes, she’s a single mom still struggling to overcome the pain of a brutal divorce.

In a new, revealing column for SoberBook.com – the online recovery magazine run by Brandi’s best friend Jennifer Gimenez – Brandi reveals ex-husband Eddie Cibrian’s affair with Leann Rimes (now Eddie’s wife) still haunts her. “Four and a half years after my betrayal,” she writes. “I still battle with depression and trust issues. I survived heartbreak, but I will be dealing with the damage it cause for the rest of my life.”

When she’s with her two sons, Jake and Mason, she’s at her happiest. But when they go to leave for their father’s house, “that feeling of falling back into the darkness…hits me.” She admits her attempts at partying the pain away haven’t always been successful. “But,” writes Brandi, “it’s my way of not sitting at home, alone, falling back into that dark place.”

“I’m so proud of my BFF for telling her truth,” Jennifer exclusively tells Wetpaint Entertainment. “That’s what SoberBook.com is all about – it’s raw and it’s real. I want people to know the Brandi that I know…she’s strong and fragile at the same time, beautiful on the inside and out.”

Click here to read Brandi’s entire column.