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In this sneak peek video for Season 5, Episode 4 of The Real Housewives of New Jersey, Melissa Gorga begins the exciting yet challenging process of writing her first book. Declaring that she wants her book to be “the bible for marriage,” Melissa is ready to get down to business and pen a real book, not just a cookbook.

However, judging by the clip, we don’t think Melissa was quite ready to deal with some demons from her past, namely that her father cheated on her mother while she was growing up. “I don’t know that I want to say my father was a man that cheats,” Melissa tearfully reveals. “It was really hard as a little girl understanding where your daddy was going and why he went out for milk and didn’t come home for a couple of days.”

Despite the pain, Melissa’s hubby, Joe, encourages her to write about her father because he was such a big part of her life. We won’t know if Melissa decided to write about her dad or not until her book, Love Italian Style: The Secrets of My Hot and Happy Marriage, comes out on Sept. 17, 2013, but we were surprised that she revealed such personal details on RHoNJ.

Are you shocked by Melissa’s reveal? Check out the sneak peek below and then weigh in.

Credit: Bravo Photo: Sneak Peek of The Real Housewives of New Jersey Season 5, Episode 4: Melissa Gorga Relives Painful Past With Her Father (VIDEO)