Bethenny Frankel may seem to be on top of the world with her mega-successful line of cocktails, fitness gear, shapewear, and an upcoming talk show, but the former reality star is struggling through the most difficult period of her life. 

Bethenny, 42, revealed that her divorce with soon-to-be ex-husband Jason Hoppy, who is fighting her for custody of the couple's 3-year-old daughter, Bryn, is wearing her down more than she'd like to admit, and she's ready to take the mask off.

"I'm going through a brutal, brutal time," Bethenny revealed in a new interview with Nightline. "It really, really is. I mean, there's no other way to slice it." 

While Bethenny and Jason showed the world the ups and downs of their relationship on Bethenny Getting Married and Bethenny Ever After, she felt disingenuous keeping the relationship going for the camera's sake alone.

"I could have stayed on the show and been like, 'Oh everything's perfect with us. Everything's great, [but] it made me feel dirty for people to think that I had this perfect relationship and this perfect life." 

While she has her talk show to look forward to, she's looking for smaller payoffs in the future.

"I would imagine, eventually, sex would be a nice release, but you know, who knows," said Bethennny.  More immediately, "I like to have a Skinnygirl cocktail," Bethenny revealed. "It's mommy juice." 

Source: Nightline