Credit: BravoTV.com Photo: Aviva Drescher and Carole Radziwill in St. Barts

After watching the events of Real Housewives of New York Season 5, Episode 15: “Vacation, All I Never Wanted” unfold last night, Aviva Drescher has only one thing to say for herself: “I was a jerk.”

In an atypically self-deprecating Bravo blog, Aviva admitted to seeing herself go off on Ramona Singer and Sonja Morgan throughout the episode about their behavior toward her and her hubby Reid (she compared Sonja to Anna Nicole Smith) and being “a little sick of hearing [herself] say that the world should have thrown a party for [her] getting to St. Barths.”

This is a much stronger stance than we previously heard from Aviva about last week’s episode – Season 5, Episode 14: “Slutty Island” – when she referred to the duo as “white trash,” but Aviva has a reason for being more ashamed of her temper than before.

“Here I was with my little anxiety while Carole [Radziwill] was suffering with memories of her late husband and the plane crash in which her friends perished. Seeing the real pain on the island that Carole was going through really put everything in perspective,” she wrote.

Aviva, of course, brought Reid along on the trip because of her extreme anxiety over flying in small planes, and when the subject came up around Carole (whose on-and-off-again boyfriend Russ Irwin was along for the trip - though he had his own business to attend to on the island), she had to excuse herself because it brought back terrible memories of her lost friends, John and Caroline Kennedy who famously perished in a tragic plane crash.

This “perspective” left Aviva saying simply, “Clearly, the only banner the girls should have hung in my honor was ‘AVIVA WAS A PAIN IN THE --S IN ST. BARTHS.’ Next time I need to leave my anxiety on the tarmac.”

Aviva gave no new excuses or justifications for her anger during the show in her blog and simply owned up to being what she called a “jerk.”

What do you make of Aviva’s public lambasting of her own words?

The Real Housewives of New York airs Mondays at 9 p.m. ET/PT on Bravo.  

Source: Bravo

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