Tonight’s the night! We are literally like no time away (okay, not literally) from Sean Lowe taking the world’s most garden fountain-y stage on The Bachelor Season 17. (Chris Harrison is already hosing down the driveway). While we have to wait a little longer to see Sean interact with the bevy of beauties competing for his heart, we already have a little bit of insight into his experience — thanks to his first blog entry for People.

In the first installment of his weekly blog, Sean candidly shares his disbelief that, even though it’s only been a few brief months since he appeared on Emily Maynard’s season of The Bachelorette — and had his heart broken when she dumped him on national television — he’s back in the dating game.

While many of us know Sean as the sweet, All-American boy who gave the speech about what love is to a baffled group of strangers in London, he almost wasn’t on the show at all.  “I never anticipated falling in love with Emily on The Bachelorette. Like many cynics, I thought the whole thing was contrived and manufactured. I never thought I'd develop real feelings under those circumstances. I only agreed to be on The Bachelorette for the travel and the experience,” Sean writes.

And how does someone pick themselves up — and not just dust off their dungarees, but get back out there, when those very real feelings were crushed? ‘Scuse us for being cynical, but it seems like it would be hard to have faith in a process that failed the first time. Not so, according to Sean: “After the heartbreak of losing Emily, I was able to really reflect on the entire journey. I came to realize two very important things: My feelings for Emily were real, but she is not the one for me.”

So what’s a hot single dude doing going back on reality TV to find his one true love? Sean addresses that very question in his blog. “The truth is, I probably don't need to be on The Bachelor to meet someone new, as there are plenty of single, nice, attractive women right here in Dallas. But I'm a firm believer that God works in mysterious and often crazy ways and he sometimes opens doors that need to be walked through.”

Source: People