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It’s almost like there are too many signs pointing to Emily Maynard as the future Mrs. Luyendyk.

Emily admitted on The Bachelorette Season 8, Episode 6 that she held Arie Luyendyk, Jr., to a higher standard than her other boyfriends. In her People.com blog about the Croatia episode, Emily writes about being grateful that Arie could forgive her for punishing him over Kalon McMahon’s “baggage.” “I was really happy that Arie and I were able to pick up right where we had left off, despite our bump in the road in London,” Em writes. “I was too hard on him, but it was only because I felt so close to him, and I'm glad he was able to forgive me.”

Here are more highlights from Em’s blog:

Wishing Ricki was on the group date:
“I honestly can't remember the last time I went to the movies on a date, so to be sitting in a theater with six men was a little crazy. As we were watching Brave, I couldn't help but wish Ricki were there, but that probably would've just made things slightly more awkward.”

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Men in kilts = not hot: “I was surprised the guys loved the movie just as much as I did, but their smiles quickly faded when I showed them their attire for the day. I wish you all could have seen these guys shooting bows, throwing giant tree trunks and then almost being reduced to tears because they were shivering from being so cold! Ladies, we may not be able to throw a tree across a field, but we can wear a cocktail dress in freezing cold temperatures without batting an eye.”

Yeah, I sucked face, what of it?
“The afterparty was clearly a lot of fun for me, and I honestly didn't realize I had kissed so many of the men. Oops. There's not much I can say to defend myself other than if you can't kiss a bunch of cute boys when you're the Bachelorette, then when can you? I obviously take my position very seriously!”

Why Bobblehead Chris Bukowski got the rose:
“I decided to give Chris the group-date rose, because he was feeling a neglected since our first date in Charlotte. As hard as it is, Chris wears his heart on his sleeve and I love that about him!”

The trouble with Ryan Bowers (besides his taste in tank tops):
“He has a very sweet, soft side to him, but at the same time there was always something about him that didn't sit well in my heart. Despite his telling me I'd be a great trophy wife, it always felt like every conversation we had somehow led us back to his love for football or some other great attribute he possesses. I've always been attracted to the type of man that has a quieter confidence, and there isn't anything understated about Ryan's confidence. While we did bond over our passion for our faith, I never felt comfortable being myself around him without feeling like I was being judged. That night I even asked Ryan if he would ever be the Bachelor, and he never gave me a yes or no answer, so that should have been warning sign number 1,298,398.”

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The crazy pull to Arie: “That night I was feeling a million different emotions, so when I saw Arie standing at my door I couldn't have been happier. We've had this crazy pull to each other since our very first date and he is the person I looked to if I needed cheering up. To hear how happy he and the other guys were about Ryan going home made me more confident in my decision. And it made me more confident in my relationship with Arie, because I could see how much I meant to him.”

If Emily doesn’t pick Arie, it has to be because of the producer drama we’ll hear more about next week … right? What else could be between them, considering how much time they spend together and kiss and gush and act like love-struck teens? If she doesn’t pick him, how is her Chosen One (if there is one) going to react to seeing her live this teenage dream with this hot race car driver?

Source: People